Dodging teh FAT

So... I'm tender, bloated, not pregnant and wondering wtf is up with it all.   My thyroid levels may be awry... waiting for the call back from my Dr's office (left a message yesterday saying they needed to discuss them with me after my draw on Monday) so that could be some of it.

I've not been to the gym in a month.  That's all on me.  Yeah, I haven't felt well, but, still... I'm NOT going to feel better if I don't get out to the gym now, am I?

I've maintained a couple of pounds lost, though, and hope to keep that moving in the right direction.  I think I'm going to brew up some elderberry tea in order to flush my system and perk it back up, too.

Jonah and I have, as I've announced on my other journal, decided to have another baby.  We really would love it to be a son (though the thought of more filly dresses and daughters with big sisters thrills me, too, frankly) ... so we're watching ovulation and hope to hit the best moment to hedge our bets a bit.

There has been a LOT of stress the last month, too... with illness (sinus and viral crap) and a car accident (involving my van, but not me) I've let it get to me.  That's never good, eh?  Working out will help THAT, too. 

It's cold but sunny today and I feel like I need to get a handle on myself and my body.  I went to see my ob/gyn this week to discuss pregnancy and my other conditions.  I have the go-ahead from her to start trying and we're off all measures of birth control.... I've been eating well (at home, lots of veggies and fruit, limited red meat, limited sweet things other than fruit) and am doing much better for it with my toilet-time. 

Letting go, revving up, allowing my life and my soul to take off... these are the things I am concentrating on and planning to make happen.  Spring is about re-birth, no?  It shall be MY re-birth and hopefully the beginning of a new phase for our family, too!

I wish my phone would ring with the endo's nurse... I'm eager to find out my results and get them settled.

 Surprise! Despite eating high-salt food yesterday (tortilla chips at lunch and grilled cheese at dinner) I'm down another pound today!  YEAHY for bloat finding its way OUT of my body finally!!!!   This is one of the good things about die-off... my body starts behaving again!  And this all during ovulation... excellent :)

Last night I had a lot more energy than I've had in a while, even though I was still horridly exhausted.  I actually got some housework done and a lot done on my business!  My headaches are also fading and my bloat is decreasing... looks like die-off is winding down! YEAHY!

This morning I've had a couple of horrid poos... total die-off poos.  I haven't had any spinich or anything else of the like to account for the color otherwise.  They're also grainy and loose... the first one was almost liquid... so I think my body's working really hard to flush this crap out finally! Too bad they're so totally foul... I mean... oh my God.   That's die-off for ya, though!!!!!

No gym again this morning... just can't do it.  If I still feel better this afternoon, however, I may go then.

*yawn* I'm going to nap for another hour right now, though, before I get ready for work.  There's been a weather change that isn't helping me and I was up late last night talking with my hubs about some big decisions we have to make.

The mega-doses of Vit D for the last three weeks are helping a lot.  My hands hurt far less than they have an my weight has stopped rising and is slowly beginning to fall.   I'm still bloated to hell and sooooo fucking tired I can barely stand at the end of the work day, but we're moving through that, too.

I need to get back to the gym.  I developed a nasty sinus infection and did a week of antibiotics last week.  It's already been 2 weeks since my last visit and I just can't get my ass moving in the morning.

I'm taking slippery elm and mallow root teas to assist in the gut healing... the antibiotics fucked me badly and I've spent this entire week in massive, exhausting die-off (jarvis-herxheimer reaction) from it.  I can't find my activated charcoal and, frankly, am too tired to get to the proper store for more.  I've been craving fruit and citrus, so giving in to those cravings assuming my body needs the C for detox.  Tonight I plan to clean my bathroom so I can really, really, REALLY enjoy some time in the tub with epsom salts, coconut milk, petouli and music.  That should help extract toxins as well.  Sweating them out in the gym would be the best option, but I don't know when I'll feel up to that again, frankly.

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So, that's it.  I'm tightening up my foods again and being pretty good about them mostly.  My carb ratios are still way off, but I'm getting back there.  The exhaustion from this all is mind-numbing, however, and I really just need to get trhough it all, ya know? 

I also am trying not to eat out often any more... for $ and also because I don't feel as well since very few places can actually control cross-contaminaiton to the level I require.

So, a call from my rhum shows my vitamin D is very low (low teens should be around 30 to 50, I believe) and that my vit B12 is mildly low. Gr.

Now, I've not been taking my multis as I should... I've only been taking one dose a day (100% vit D) most of the time...so I'll double that and it will be enough Bs... but... WTF with the D!  

*sighs*

This would help explain my crushing exhaustion, increased pain, both in joints and muscles (starting, not surprisingly, in Oct, when I came in out of hte sun for the winter) and the increadible amount of weight I've been packing in (20 lbs in under 4 months without any drastic changes to lifestyle) and psoriatic flares ...  so a script will be called into my pharmacy today most likely and I'll be taking an ass-load of D on top of my multis.

Good times.

I HOPE this helps... if my levels don't get to where they need to be I might take advantage of the tanning options at the gym (it's free with my membership) and just get a little extra that way, too.  I looked into light boxes, but it's actually the UV that triggers Vit. D production so they won't help with that.  Bah.  I'll be the only one in the tanning booth with my shorts and tank top on and sunscreen on my face and shoulders, ha ha ha!

WEIGHT
so, the scale is totally stuck at 278 (puke) ... I was SO close to 250 before I started backsliding!!!!  I can't believe I went from 255 to 278 since fucking August.  I FEEL it, too... it's not just the tight clothes and bloated looking face, I feel it in my joints and my movement and my life.  *Sighs*  I am going to have to re-count my paperclip strand and take off the extra clips... I've now only lost 72 lbs, not 80+. Poop.  I will add more later when the scale starts to catch up with the extra exercize.

EXERCIZE
BUT I got to the gym again today... that's twice this week so far for aeobic treadmilling... no weights this week, I just don't feel up to it and don't want to trigger anything... however I have gotten up a great sweat and kept my heart rate over 130 (and under 145)  for 20 min (my resting heart rate is in the mid 80s, usually right at 83).    Right about 20 min with the treadmill set at 2.5 incline and 3.5 mph I start getting a stitch in my side and really feeling it in my muscles, so that's my warm-down point.  I'm hoping that before too long it takes 25 min, then 30, then up to an hour to get to that point with ever increasing inclines.  We'll see, though!   Once I can do a full half hour at that speed on the treadill, I'll start doing the eliptical every other day and once I'm going every day I'll add the weights back in on treadmill days.

I only got to the gym once last week and felt like crap for it... no excuses this time; I will go again on Saturday to make my 3x this week!

It's hard to be patient.... but I know what rushing into this doe to me.

HEALTH AND NUTRITION
So... it's bleed-week.  Today was cramping and the dire-rear is here for a couple of days in response.  Being a woman is so glamerous. GAH!  That make me feel a *little* better that the scale is right where it started three weeks ago when I joined the gym.   Also knowing that I *am* building muscle, which *does* weigh more per square inch than fat helps a lot.   I need to get those models mom gave me out for inspiration!!!!

I'm not doing as well with my nutrition as I'd like.  I did finally cut sugar back to zilch (I'd really been letting it in again! Eeep!) and diet soda's gone as well.  Diet soda is SO much harder for me to cut than sugar, which seems silly but is the truth of it.   Damn toxic crap.  At least there's no mercury laden High Fructose Corn Syrup hanging around!  Any of you reading this who haven't see the research paper on that, btw, let me know with an e-mail address and I'll forward it to you.

Otherwise, I'm tightening up my eating slowly but surely.  Carbs are sooo hard.  I do love them so much!!!!  I'm getting better slowly, but still have to watch it.  I seem to do ok until the last minute in the evening then devour something like potato chips or french fries!   Silly... I have plenty of fruit and other healthy stuffs in the house I could eat instead!

I know my candida's flaring again and was starting to take a cleanse but realized that until I get my nutrition back on track (I've stopped calling it 'diet' due to the negative social implications and how it is percieved by my girls) it is stupid to do a cleanse because I'll just be feeding the stronger yeast with my poor eating habits and making things worse in the long-run.   I"m eating better, though, and overall am eating less (craving less) so I think I've already starte to get things under control.

I got up and have clothes and stuff but REALLY don't feel well in the tummy (bad, bad, bad tummy day saturday thanks to a pint of (no sugar added, reduced fat) ice cream. GAH... so bad, that cramping!)  I feel like a lout not going to the gym this morning but my stomach REALLY hurts still and I don't think I could do it.

I also ate a fuckton fo sugar yesterday because I'm an idot.  Sooo... today I am going to start a candida cleanse and get back on track.

If all goes well, I will go to the gym tonight instead of this morning and do my full routine.  For now, though, I'm going to get another hour of sleep and then throw together some breakfast and lunch foods before work.

Yesterday's workout has caught up to me.  I don't remember if I posted or not, but I did a full 20 of cardio on treadmill (plus warm up and semi-warm down) then one circuit in the circuit training room (about 15 minutes).   I can do between 40 and 50 lbs for 15-20 reps on all the arm machines, 100 on the ab machines and 150-200 on the leg machines, all with at least 15 reps, or 10 reps, 2 sets.   I will be working up to a half hour of pure cardio (plus warm-up), a full half hour (2-3 circuits) in the circuit training room and then another 15 min. on the treadmill as a warm-down 3x a week and a half hour to an hour on treadmill (with half an hour of cardio) the other four days a week.  I expect this to take at least three months to work up to.

So... today I'm sore, but not horrendously so.  Considering I had a rhum exam where I was poked and (gently) prodded on my trigger points, I think I'm doing pretty damn well.  I was bone-tired last night and had trouble staying awake both at work and home come evening, but that's my norm right now (ugh... is it still die-off or do I have a candida flare or is it the fibro or just *me*???) I came away from that appt with scripts for celebrex and ultracet to help me get through this next couple of months while revving up my routine without the pain stopping me.  I hate those meds, particularly the Celebrex... but it's just short-term.  I will fill those scripts tonight so long as my paycheck gets posted today.

My main complaint today is that I'm soooo swollen!  I think it's 50% the weight training and 50% that fucking chili I got from Wendys yesterday with the MSG.  I also have heartburn and I really need to back off the nightshades (potatoes in particular) for a while.  I brought chicken and peas for lunch and have 2 small apples and orange and a grapefruit to snack on (trying to dose hard on the vit. C to help detox).

I've been doing ok with my vitamins.  I usually get one dose and often 2 during the day here at work.  I have both of Futurebiotics' women's multis that are available in my local market... Energy Plus and Hair, Skin and Nails.  They have slightly different formulations and get some of the minerals/vits from different sources, so I like to take both rather than two doses of one of them.  So far so good... I feel better, eat less and have better nails on them.

I am out of L-Glutamine... just occured to me that the heartburn came back when that ran out. I will pick up some more.  The L-Lysine is doing amazing things for my thyroid health... very little hair loss (NORMAL amounts!!!!), my eyebrows are thickening, especially in the outer third, no goiter or trouble swallowing... I'm really impressed.  I will have to look into the other aminos and maybe try the amino acid suppliments that have them all, though those are primarily soy based and I worry about tha a little... not terribly, though, since it seems to be the soy protien as a whole molecule I have trouble with (no real issue with the oil, though I'm careful not to have too much, or the fermented bean).

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OK, back at it. Time to push the water, take my first batch of vits and maybe have some fruit while I actually *Gasp* get work done!

So, this AM I woke stiff but not sore... I did, however, choose not to go back to the gym today as I didn't get enough sleep last night (playing cheerleader for Laurel's homework-a-thon and then Anna coming into our bed about 1:30 due to leg pain) and am afraid of triggering another flare.  

I'm doing ok, however.

Tomorrow is my training session on the circuit training room and I'm really looking forward to it :)  I finished my treadmill yesterday (which I think has been really good since it's hower impact on my joints than the pavement of walking outside, I'm not having the pain I did doing shoerter, less intense walks in the neighborhood) and I wanted to do more but was unsure about the machines... it was also crowded and, unlike when I go in the early mornings, all the patrons were younger, fitter, flirtier and that wasn't as comfortable for me when trying to figure out something new.

OK

Food.

Today I had coffee w/splenda and cream (I know, I know... I'll get some sweet n' low next time i'm at BJs ... at least it's not aspertame!) and Bob's cereal, super fortified with eggs and flax.  I brought a chicken breast, green beans and a grapefruit for lunch.  I was going to bring chips, too, to snack on but realized what a stupid idea that was, heh!

I've coffe... and I've almost drunk enough water to allow me to open the thermos, lol!

OK, so did eh in the food front this weekend.... not bad, but not great.   Fried foods tonight (fish, potatoes, chips)  and a meal from Delmonico's (at least I made it into TWO meals, go me!  I wouldn't have done that a year ago...) ... but overall not a bad eating weekend (a long weekend at that!)

I didn't get to the gym from Thurs-Sun which isn't great, but DID go tonight even though I plan to go tomorrow morning.  I did a full 30 min on treadmill plus warmup.  I burned  about 120 calories then promptly ate 600 calories worth of  glutano bars Mom gave me... oops! But, it's more than about calories (I'd have eaten those anyway)  it's about getting my body back to moving and building muscle and sweating out toxins!

I am wondering about breakfast. Should I eat before or after I work out?  I tend to not be hungry afterwards but if I don't roll out of bed and go to the gym I find reasons not to get there, especially since I have to wait an hour after swallowing my pill before I can eat ... which is better for my body, though? I don't know.  I don't suppose it matters since I really don't see me eating that early... but we'll see.

so...

yeah.

Fatigue is still powerful.  Back hurts (under left scapula) worse than before my chiro appt.   Weight still up.   IBS rearing it's ugly head.  But progress is slow and steady and that's the important bit, eh?  Progress.

So, I joined a new gym on Saturday.  First time I've worked out since Curves closed in the autum.  Bad, I know.  

I also stepped on the scale for the first time in months.  Also bad.  I saw a number that downright horrified me.  269.8... for all intents and purposes, back up to 270.  I'd gotten down *almost* to 250, what happened to me?!?!?!?

So... yeah.

Working out so far is just treadmill every other day.  I have an appt with the physical trainer to go over the circuit training machines on Weds next week and get my routine set up on that.  I plan to do treadmill every day and circuit training every other, eventually treadmill or other aerobic on  circiut training days as well, working out up to an hour a day.  Wish me luck with that very ambitious project, heh!

Anyway, already noticing some differences.  Only two days of working out (four days into it total) I am sleeping better and my muscles feel better.  I'm not sore and already some of my fatigue is lifting (I'm sure most of this last fibro flare is from not working out for several months).  I can't complain about the cost, faciity or hours, so there really aren't any more excuses.

Today the scale was a bit kinder (268 even) and I know a lot of that is getting the water weight out of me.  It's still WAY high so that is something to not be ok with, but better.  Much better than the 278 (fully dressed, on my period) at my physical last week.  Gah!

ok.

So... that's it. Eating is getting better every day.  i've only had one diet soda infraction all week and that wasn't even worth it, so I doubt it will come up again.  I have drunk some juice, but that's really because the girls are sick and I want to pound the nutrients.  I've chosen no-sugar-added, so at least it's all fructose.  I have been watching protein and carbs a bit more carefully and, while I've not tracked this week, I know I've done better.... lunch today excluded ;)

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ok, time to get back to work.  TTYL!

but I'm doing better this AM.  I brought my breakfast (portioned) to work this AM and am going to grab lunch on the way to my Dr appt... but I think I'll go by the grocery for a couple of lara bars and keep it simple.

Last night exploded into a heap of potato chips and sour cream (with garlic powder for dip) and was just bad.  I didn't feel well afterward either.

I'm hungry now, but not starving, so my oranges and eggs were a good choice this AM. Trying to keep hydrated with twice as much water as coffee at any given time.... I do better with hydration at work than home because it's right here in front of me.  I need to work on it at home too, though!

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I have canned chinese food for dinner... not great, but tasty, heh! I'll make brown rice and add extra chicken to it... and dinner will be early so it isn't a big deal that lunch will be sparse.

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ok, gotta get ready to go ... yeahy physical? Oy.

It's only just past 2pm and I've had 3x my goal for carbs (goal is 90-150 carbs) and more than my share of calories for the day (goal is 1800-2300 cals). Good job, Allyson!

I'm not really restricting my intake right now... just getting the baseline... but this is showing me a lot of where I need to make some changes.  Hopefully being aware of it will help me decrease it by making better choices.

At least my (healthy) fat and fiber are in line... yeahy flax seed, lol!

	Grams	Calories	%-Cals
Calories		2,239
Fat	68.9	620	29	%
Saturated	6.8	61	3	%
Polyunsaturated	3.1	28	1	%
Monounsaturated	8.4	75	3	%
Carbohydrate	378.9	1,241	57	%
Dietary Fiber	69.1
Protein	75.9	306	14	%
Alcohol	0.0	0	0	%

so... here's what I've been doing today...

• Last night I drank my last diet soda. Ever.
  
• I am tracking my food on fitday.com again
  
• Focusing on water and vitamins and whole foods

FOOD REPORT
Today I'm broke and eating from what exists at home.  Lots of eggs, then, and carbs (ugh).  I'm going a mostly-protien dinner, though, so that will be good.

Bob's Red Mill Mighty Tasty GF Hot Cereal is the base of my food today. I egged and flax seeded it up, but still that gives a bad protein/carb ratio, especially with the raisins I put into it!  Ah well.  Lunch will be a couple hard boiled eggs and an orange, dinner deviled eggs, cinnamon apples (no sweetner) and green beans... I may skip the apples and orange, though.

hm.

Really must do better... but this week is about establishing a baseline.  I will start working out on Saturday, too.


PAIN REPORT
ow, ow, fuckidy ow ow ow.   Took some excedrine this AM and need more now.  Body, head, everything.  Gah.  I know that I'll start feeling better when I'm working out again.  I am also looking forward to my Rhum appt at the end of the month to get back on a pain management routine.


OTHER HEALTH
Candida bloom is getting under control.  Undeniable signs of die-off (exhaustion, buzzing headache, skin issues).  Anti-fungal for today was grapefruit seed extract because the garlic and cinnamon have been triggering my gastric reflux.   Still just on the acidophilous for probiotics, so I need to budget for the 'good stuff' soon here.

Because I've not been doing well by my own body. For sure.  My Curves closed in September and I never 'got around' to signing up anywhere else.  I've been lax on carbs (VERY lax) and even eating sugar (cringes).  So now...  weight gain, candida bloom, tired, depressed, grumpy.

I've no idea what my weight is because I can't bring myself to get on the scale.  I will do so when I sign up at the gym on Satureday AM (going with my dad for a discount on membership... and motivation.)

I'm back on antifungals (garlic, cinnimon, grapefruit seed extract) and probiotics (acidophilus... need the more potent stuff, but I have to be able to afford it and that's not happening right now).

I was eating out too much so have cut that back too (will help afford florasmart, heh!) and, well, am making it all work. I have to.

In other news, fibro-flare in full force, probably related, at least in part, to not working out and the candida bloom.  I will be seeing my rhum in a couple of weeks and that will help as I'll get some pain meds to keep myself moving as I get back on track.

I need to start watching carbs again and cut out diet cola again.  The cola is going first (tomorrow) and I am going to spend a month being more aware of my carbs before I start limiting again for February.  I will be following Dr. Schwarzbein's plan for carbs again, so 30 per meal will be my target with 15 for snacks. 

So, well, that's about it, eh?

*yawns*

I am sooo sleepy.  So tired ALL the time.  Hate being ill. HATE IT.  I am, however, the only one who can fix it and that sucketh.

 back on my vitamins, had slacked, started gaining weight as a result... so, yeah.

have been craving lara bars of late.  These are lovely and my body is responding favorably.  They seem to be like a 'reset' button for me.  I should buy a few boxes of amazon and eat nothing else for a couple of days... or buy a food processor and make my own (they're dates, nuts and spices mostly.)

 elderberry tea.  Not the best idea for auto-immune disease sufferers, it's still helping me through this weird fucked-up-adrenal bloat that hits me post Mirena.  I go easy on it and don't eat the berries or seeds.

L glutamine and L lysine making a huge impact on my health, I believe.  I will keep those up and likely add at least one more amino acid to the rotation (one for metabolism most likely as that will help with thyroid issues as well).

*yawns*

flare still going, but not as bad as it was.  Working through, working through.

Chris and Adam,

 

Rather than doing some big formal disclosure thing, I just wanted to drop you both a note. I have a chronic illness called Fibromyalgia with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome which has been in partial remission for the past two years, but that remission seems to have ended and for a month now the illnesses have been back in full force. While this doesn’t typically have much of an impact on my work performance (transition seasons, such as autumn and spring are difficult and sometimes I have to call in more during them) it does sometimes require me to use mobility aids such as ramps and a cane. As I come out of remission and before I find proper pain management again, I may have to use a cane from time to time and didn’t want to just show up with one and not have warned anyone. I will deal with co-workers as need be, but as my supervisor and Executive Director, I felt I should give advance warning.

 

I’m not asking for any special consideration at this point, though if things get particularly bad I might request the ability to work from home occasionally rather than miss days and get behind in my activities. Since this is a pain disorder, the primary obstacle becomes actually getting out of the house, not actually completing the work. I really would prefer not to do this, though, and since I have gotten other health considerations under very tight control in the past two years so I am hoping this flare won’t have the same impact as previous ones, I just want to be prepared. Other than that, I will likely only need to take a couple of hours off here and there to meet with pain management specialists as I go back on medication and we search for the right combinations. I have enough time in my bank for that not to be a problem if I am careful to plan around meetings and trainings, though.

 

Thank you for taking the time to read this and please feel free to ask any questions or concerns.  I’m actually pretty open about my illness and have acted as an advocate for other people suffering from Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and similar health issues, but it’s never been enough of a problem to bring it up here (having only discussed it with Linda in the past). I just feel that, as ADA issue, it’s only fair that I give you a heads-up now that I’m having difficulty again as I prefer to plan for contingencies rather than having to back-track and have to deal with it at a critical time instead. In the 13 years since my initial diagnosis I’ve learned what works for me and what doesn’t, so on that note, these are the steps I am taking here at work to minimize the effect of my illness on my job performance:

 

*To-do lists so I am more organized and can more easily work from other locations if need-be.

 

*Switching from primarily using an Outlook calendar to using a paper calendar so that I can better assess my upcoming workload, even from home if I’m having a particularly bad day in order to better plan and assess my options. I will carry this with me back and forth to work from now on.

 

*Organizing my folders and documents within my desktop in a better manner so that, if need be, someone can find and e-mail me documents easily or find them for a project quickly by phoning me for directions to where they are on the computer.

 

 

If either of you have any other suggestions, I would appreciate hearing them. While I don’t expect to have any change at all in my time here at work (other than periodic use of a cane and occasional doctor appointments) I’d rather be prepared

 

 

 

 

 

first the good: I had no ill effects from the nachos I ate the other night and I took some acipophilous pills prior to eating and had very little flatulence or gastric distress from it. 

Now the bad.

I'm so fucking pissed off that the FMS and CFS are back full force.  SO FUCKING PISSED.  I woke up one day about a month ago in full fledged flare and now it just won't go away and the exhaustion is getting worse.  I can't really contribute it to die-off (not working on that) or anything else, I'm just fucking flaring. Badly.  IT HURTS.  It hurts all the time.   I'm so low on spoons that getting out of bed strips me for the rest of the day.  Jonah's clued into it and is trying to get the kids to behave a little so I can rest more... and this makes it even MORE imperative that I get the back bedroom painted so I can move the bed upstairs and be able to doze/rest in the evening as soon as dinner is done but not be seperated from the girls.

I can't verablize, however, the disappointment, anger and discouragement that this has brought into my life.  I want to scream. I want to cry, I want to kick things because words leave me at the most inopportune times... and, frankly, when flaring it's the fine muscle control I lose, so talking is a LOT more difficult than throwing something, especially when the brainfog kicks in and I lose words.

*sighs*

I don't know how to properly express this, so I'll stop where I am... but... but... but.  Huge fucking 'but'. 

OY.

*Proactive steps to take:
*tighten up diet (already doing that)
*stop eating out (this includes non-gf dedicated kitchens in friends houses or resteraunts) so that I avoid even accidental cross-contamination
* find a way to incorperate mild exercise (even walking the neighborhood is too much some days) ... perhaps, once the basement is set up as the family room I can get a treadmill so I can walk in a more controlled environment and if I suddenly can't go a step furhter, I don't find myself a block or two away from my house.... I could probably get a decent treadmill off craig's list...
*accept that I nave more limitations and deal with them without giving up on my body or health
*make an appt with my rhum to discuss pain meds and get a new script as mine still has refills but was given out 2 years ago.

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Fuck me.  I am not read to deal with any of this and not really willing to.  I wonder what painting will be like leaning on the cane?  Should I disclose my disabilities to my supervisor and acting ED *now* so they're not surprised when I come hobbling in with a cane... since it will happen, since it almost happened today?  Lots to consider. 

*sighs*

Gah.

So, while I am not 100% back on-line with stuff (still eating too many carbs in general) I am getting much closer.  No sugar outright for nearly a week (yeah, fell off that bandwagon hard, hit my head and suffered mild amnesia I guess...) and wittling down my carbs again.  I have only had one dairy infraction (sour cream) and am cutting down butter again as my body just isn't good at processing that much fat all at once.

Today in particular I've been good and I'm hoping it's the start of the new line to kick candida and gut issues out of my body.  I've had UTI symoptoms and skin issues that I KNOW are candida ... also INSANE bloating that could be from this being my first real cycle post Mirena removal but likely is as much about not eating right as anything else.

So... food diary for a few days.  Just gonna have to do it.

Breakfast:

10 rice crackers (15 carbs)
1 apple (15 carbs)
a 4-5 tbs peanut butter (approx 13 carbs and 28 protein)

...

Still a bit more carb-heavy than I like, but not terribly and I'm full and feel well.  This AM I also drank two cups of 'slimming' (diuretic) tea to help trigger my body to let go of the bloat and release some of the fluid built up in my tissues causing me pain and distress.


I didn't go walking yet today, but did yesterday.  Toda I'll go on lunch break, I think, assuming it's not pouring, lol!

*yawns*

I didn't sleep enough.  My fault, but sucked.  Pain was really, really, REALLY bad last night.  Rainy weather, stress, prior housework... all led to felling eh physically.  Add a trip to the chiro and two hours of shopping with the girls and I was BEAT physically and, sadly, that keeps me awake.  Oy!

On the right path, though. Serioulsy.  Gonna stick to it, too. 

grapefruit

tuna with massive amounts of onion

asparagus


......


At least it's all good, whole food!!!!!!

Am really wondering WTF is up with my body for honing in on these specific foods tonight, however.  Oy!